fear of wanting,

ever thought of something you wanted so much it scares you?

people go crazy searching for it, but when they get it imagine how it feels after so long waiting and searching….

MIA

I actually like being MIA now… really seeing who the REAL people are, even though my first impressions were usually right anyway… life goes smoother now… no drama…  there is hella stress though, but could be worse, atleast things are getting better, I’m getting better… and that’s mostly what I needed….far from what I’m expecting, but on my way there, that’s all that matters… thanks to some certain people also, you guys/girls know who you are.

Fairy tale endings,

are just stories that haven’t finished yet.

Bad Peace > Good War
MattDaddie

Good Morning,

haven’t been on here for a long ass time, hella lazy today….

what’s been on my mind? well, you actually.  cause everytime your back on the island you seem to like how things used to be… I do too…, but damn… how many times must we do this… it’s been years… yet still the same shit with us.. guess I’ll just take what it is for what it is and be okay with it for just the time we have.  guess I can’t complain, your not like the rest. 

 nakasone:

Brother. <3
I barely talk to him anymore. We’re best friends no matter what situation goes down. I know he goes through struggles in life and i know he knows that im ALWAYS here for him. Even though im miles away from him right now. I’ll be back home real soon and i hope that we can catch up. And i know we have A LOT to talk about. I love you Matthew. You know that.
-B

 You got me, I got you.
Thanks Brandie, I know your kinda know what’s been going on with my life right now, we will talk about it, it’s not something I’m trying to hide from you, I just want to be better when we do talk about it,  your not here right now, but have some fun while your away, I’ll try make things better when you get back so all we have is good times, love you!  I’ll call you when I get a phone, things are starting to turn around for me, thanks for thinking of me, I miss you. I’ll try to keep in touch more also :D
-Matthew

nakasone:

Brother. <3

I barely talk to him anymore. We’re best friends no matter what situation goes down. I know he goes through struggles in life and i know he knows that im ALWAYS here for him. Even though im miles away from him right now. I’ll be back home real soon and i hope that we can catch up. And i know we have A LOT to talk about. I love you Matthew. You know that.

-B

 You got me, I got you.

Thanks Brandie, I know your kinda know what’s been going on with my life right now, we will talk about it, it’s not something I’m trying to hide from you, I just want to be better when we do talk about it,  your not here right now, but have some fun while your away, I’ll try make things better when you get back so all we have is good times, love you!  I’ll call you when I get a phone, things are starting to turn around for me, thanks for thinking of me, I miss you. I’ll try to keep in touch more also :D

-Matthew

Missing In Action.

No Facebook, no phone, no job… Life is crappy right now. Trying to better myself still. This will be a long process thanks friends who know what I’m going through. Please be patient with me. Hope this year goes good. Fingers are crossed. MIA.

Girl 1, Girl 2.

(Blank1) makes me feel like I do when I write my new years resolutions, she makes me feel like the guy I want to be. (Blank2) makes me feel like the guy 3 weeks after my new years, when I’m back to hitting the snooze button and being an ass hole, back to who I really am.  So, do I try to evolve, or try to know who I really am? 

I admit it,

this time of the year makes me weak….

holidays….kill me…

fastforward please..

tonight,

something feels wrong….

feels very off….

hold on,

to something, and never let it go.

Missed placed trust,

in old friends.

music is so crazy, 2 seperate types of music, mixed into one.   crazy :D

today was fucking stupid,

bad news today, work sucked, then come home and what? find out that it happend again…. for what the fucking 3rd time. wtf is wrong with my family..  fuck!!!!!!!!!!!! just want to give up on everything already.. wth did i do so wrong to have all this happen to me..  so much things… it’s sad…

Tina & Betsy

the names.

haha for @Nakasone